I’ll never forget the morning I found out I was pregnant with baby #2. It was the day after Thanksgiving which was also Kyles 30th Birthday and the Apple Cup. We were planning on having a big tailgate party next door at my in-laws with lots of friends and family. I was excited to celebrate the day and enjoy in some ice cold beer and football! I woke up that morning and thought “hmm……7 days late…that hardly happens. I’ll just take a test to calm my fears. NOWAY am I pregnant.”
So I went to the grocery store and grabbed some sausage, eggs and a pregnancy test. If I really was pregnant (which I was sure I wasn’t) I wanted to tell Kyle by writing a birthday card to him from baby #2 so I went into the Safeway bathroom (classy, I know!) and that is where I found out that we would soon be a family of four.
Kyle was excited. He and his brother are 18 months apart and he loved growing up so close in age. Me, on the other hand, wasn’t sure what to think or feel. I was excited, scared, fearful, anxious, you name it!
I remember the next night I couldn’t sleep so I walked upstairs and picked up my sleepy baby out of her crib in the middle of the night and rocked her back and forth with tears streaming down my face. She was 10 months old at that time and I just felt so bad that we were already bringing another child into the house. In eight short months, her life would change just as dramatically as ours!
I was also worried that I wouldn’t be able to love another child as much as I love Clara (I know, another silly thought). I was on the phone with one of my good friends one night and I said to her “I love Clara so much, how will I find room in my heart to love another one just as much as I love her?” She replied “I don’t think you have to find room. Your heart will grow with every child God gives you.” I love that woman. That was exactly what I needed to hear. Clara was the best gift God has ever blessed me with and I knew at that moment that not only would I have an endless amount of love to give both my children but that God would be with me every step of the way to give me the tools I need to be everything my children need in a mother. With God by my side, I cannot fail.
Fast forward. I’m 32 weeks pregnant and ecstatic about having two little girls to fill up my days (and nights). I have two sisters and couldn’t imagine what a day would be like without them so I’m thrilled that Clara will be able to share that same sister bond. The nursery is coming along and I’m feeling less stressed about another baby joining our family soon. However, I do feel a slight panic attack coming on every time I walk down the hallway and catch a glimpse of TWO cribs in TWO separate nurseries! The diapers, Oh the diapers! As challenging as it
may will be, I’m excited to have two little girls so close together.
Clara is a lot easier to travel with these days. She loves to be in the car, sleeps through the night and behaves pretty well at restaurants. For that reason, the three of us have been escaping for weekend vacations while it’s only “just the three of us” for a little while longer. Last weekend we traveled to Portland, OR. We ate at the famous voodoo doughnuts and went to the Zoo. It was so fun!
Of all the beautiful animals we got to see, her favorite was the fish!
I’m so grateful for the joy she brings to our life. Though I still have fears about having two babies so close in age (oh, the diapers!) I’m excited for this new journey. Do you have kiddos that are close in age? If you do and you’re reading this, it’s offering me a lot of hope because that means you survived and lived to tell about it! Good for you! Send all your advice my way!
If you’ve made it to the end of this life update post, thank you! I know it’s not like my typical content but as our lives are changing and our family is growing, I imagine this blog will adapt with us. Don’t worry, I have a lot of new and exciting “furniture/home decor” post ideas coming in the near future! TGIF! Have a good weekend!